I feel like I have fallen off of the face of the earth for life as I know it. We spent almost the ENTIRE month of February home being sick. It was mostly the kids but I got to take my turn too. Bryce was also out of town most of February... literally... most of February, but fortunately when I was sick... he was kindof home. :) We jumped into a super busy March with Bryce still traveling a lot for work and a schedule packed in tight! He had lasik done on one eye and we are excited to see (literally) postitive results from that. He said the procedure wasn't bad at all but after watching it-- I will have to wear glasses if my vision ever starts to go. I can't handle eye drops in my eye-- let alone all that I saw them do to him! It grosses me out. Also in March we celebrated my mom's 60th birthday! (That will have to be another post though cause she is too great to be mashed in with this one!) One goal that I finally got accomplished this year was to build and put in a few grow boxes! I am trying the square foot gardening and am SO excited!!! I have planted some peas and onions so far. I am a bit worried that I haven't seen any sprouts yet but it has only been 2 weeks since I planted them so I can't get into a tizzy about it yet. With my black thumb... I do have cause to worry though! I have it all mapped out on what I want planted and when it needs to be done. I hope I can get it to work! I love gardening and being outside. There is just something about all of it that just gets me excited and I feel a huge sense of satisfaction making things look nice and watching stuff grow. I am trying not to lose my mind in the process of life. I seem to be on the losing side of the battle though lately. I left my camera outside (all night!) a few weekends ago and it poured rain on it! I was just sick when I realized it! I had taken it outside to snap a few pictures of the kids one Saturday and set it on the deck steps so it would be handy if I wanted a few more pics but also out of the way of anyone stepping on it. I also knew I would see it on my way back inside. Unfortunately I changed my plans without thinking. I helped the kids carry balls into the garage after we played "poison ball" on the trampoline and in the garage door I went to make lunch. Bryce was gone that weekend dirtbiking and life was crazy taking care of the kids and such. I didn't go out back again that day and we enjoyed a fun evening inside while it rained outside! After all of that my camera still works! I do think though that some stuff isn't the same. I am still upset about it. How could I let this happen to my camera?! I love that camera and DON'T want to buy a new one! I am going to keep taking pictures with it and see what they turn out like. :( On top of that great news of my camera... we also found out that AT&T is purchasing T-Mobile! What does this mean for Bryce's job??? Who knows. It will probably take a year or so for it all to really go through but it adds a sense of unease for me. I know he is working hard and it will all work out in the end... but I am comfortable with where I am now. Enough said. We will be fine. We have worked hard and have tried to make good financial choices to help support us in hard times so let's hope we did enough if we need it. I am glad that spring is coming and it is warming up outside. I have struggled a lot in March. My emotions have been all out of whack and some days I have to fight hard to want to get out of bed. I like to see accomplishment and feel like I am moving forward in my day. Mason is requiring SO much time and looking after that it doesn't leave much for anything else. He is like a tornado that leaves a path of destruction everywhere he goes. It is totally his age but some days I am not sure if I will survive. He totally wears me out and most days I need a nap to stay sane. It has been extra hard this time around. I think having Bryce traveling so much has added lots more to my plate of things to take care of and has worn me out fast! I think I fell into a pretty good depression in March. I wanted to shut down and I had a hard time dealing with people. I felt so bad cause I didn't even want to throw a party for Mason! Nothing against him but I couldn't face the work, the crowd of people and all the caious that comes with it. Fortunately I started to feel a bit better and it all worked out for his big day. I am trying to take things slow and steady and hopefully it will all keep on the up and up from here. The sun seems to help me a lot! I am trying REALLY hard to not turn to treats for my emotional support. I am mad that I have a gut and eating junk food to make me feel better isn't helping that... I wish it would though! I ran across a funny comic today that I tried to scan in and couldn't get it to work so I took a picture of it with my camera:
This is totally how I feel every day! Except I don't mind actually eating the chocolate! That is half of the fun. My body is retaining more of the fat that I appreciate so I am cutting back and getting my rear kicked with my ab workout video. Speaking of which... I need to go do that. Well- one more day of March and here comes April! I can do this. I can do this! :)
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